i don't know , i don't know .
im trying to forget everything about the past.
but i realise i couldn't .
i tried to change , i tried to study .
but all this things seems nothing anymore.
my change were not seen , everything i do become my fault again .
i wanted to study , at least to achieve something .
but , nothing went in .
i can't even do my physics workbook on my own .
i needed ppl to be there to coach me for all the questions .
see how pathetic i can be.
yes, im a total failure i guess.
everybody told me i couldn't make it this year .
maybe they are right .
im hopeless after all. i can't do anything on my own .
im too dependent on others alr i guess .
i thought i could pick myself up from each fall.
but, i can't .
maybe is time for me to learn how to be independent .
learn how to face all the setbacks on my own .
and not be too dependent on others alr .