Stupid day i had today .
super VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY BAD DAYY-.-
every body is moody -.- damn fuck up-.-
totally no mood today.
going have physics test tomo, i think i will just write my name and go to sleep -.-
homeworks all not done .
totally nothing is done .
maybe ppl is right , i surely drop na this year .
after school , went bishan . walk ard alone .
sort out all my thoughts , but still . nothing went right at all .
went over find min er and her kor .
her kor super crap , budden a funny and socialble guy though .
went over yishun park , asked hongliang come down .
slack awhile , took 811 to northpoint .
meet grandparents.
intended to eat don't know what noodles , long queue .
decided to go sakae , long queue also .
so went over food court .
eat finish , they went off 1st .
walk ard northpoint , bought sweets .
and reach home near 9 .
i guess , im totally hopeless .
in pri school , nobody thinks i will make it to express.
even my family members .
they thought i will go into na or nt .
but still , i made it in .
i was happy for myself .
sec 1 was life was super alright .
i did my best to keep myself in express.
up till sec 2 ,
my studies drop like stupid .
i got bad -.- learnt up stupid stuffs .
sleeping in class .
nobody thought i could make it , but still i made it .
but till this year .
i don't think i will make it anymore .
i started from getting bad to worst .
pon school pon class starting of the year.
sleeping in class , get into trouble with teachers .
quited cca .
after june holidays , after everything happened.
i thought i sort out my thoughts.
make up my mind , got all my motivations into studying .
even how many ppl say i will drop to na , i told them i wouldnt .
i thought i could remain happy , trying to study with my best effort ,
but all was fake .
i totally lost all my motivations to study .
i really don't think i will make it this year.
i felt super hopeless with myself .
maybe ppl were right , im stupid. i confirm drop to na.
even how much i studied , i still couldnt get things right
im toally hopesless .
evwn how much i tried to put in effort, how hard i tried to change , nobody sees it .
so i don't get whats the point .
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anw, thanks to hy and mj , for the kinder and milktea :}
and trying all your best to cheer me up .
i doubt they will read my blog though -.- zz .