i guess,
i've learnt how to keep everything to myself once again .
i once was like this , keeping everything to myself .
crying myself to bed everynight .
but i decided to open up to ppl , and tell ppl what im thinking and how i felt.
but now , i realise i should be like how i am in the past.
keeping everything to myself , crying to bed everynight .
i tried damn hard to hold back my stupid tears .
telling myself to be strong no matter what happen .
even how moody i was , how sad i was i would just smile and think that everything will be okay.
but i realise , i don't have the strength to do that anymore.
i lost almost all of my motivations on stuffs.
i totally lost my motivation to study and everything .
i feel like giving up everything now .
i guess, im just that failure.
maybe what other ppl say was right . i couldn't be that future counselor .
i thought i could control my emotions well , but i cant.
since i cant, i just don't have any rights to counsel ppl .
maybe i've to forget about my dreams and everything .
i totally lost all my confidence and motivations .